Flying Out Of My Mind.

We flew home from Salt Lake yesterday. I woke up early yesterday and was sure I was going to loose it. In the first second of waking up I heard screaming from my two youngest and it didn't end for the first half hour. Knowing that I had to board a plane in four hours this was definitely not a great sign that it was going to go smoothly. So I thought either I am not getting on the plane or we have got to do something about this. So luckily my mom being the saint that she is agreed to take Matthew on the plane with her the next day to Cleveland. Which we would be able to pick him upfrom her there. Since we are going to meet them in Clevland for Marks Graduation(yipee!). I just couldn't of been more relieved to know that I wasn't going to loose it. Even though it was hard to leave him it was for his good. He is sick and has been for the last three months. So traveling would of been hard on him. Ethan is just wanting to be the baby which makes it hard when he won't do things for himself.

I then took off and had a much better flight. I even was able to sleep for a moment. I know all you moms out there are jealous. I realized that kids do grow up and life does get easier. For the past 24 hours I haven't changed one diaper and it has been the best feeling ever. I have loved the break. I do miss Matthew. And wouldn't change what I have ever if anything I am going to someday make more more maham with more kids. And hope that in the future life will calm down or at least get less stinky.

I did come home to Chris leaving me flowers threw out my house and notes every where tell me all the things he likes and appreciates about me. I loved it. I have to say I am still finding notes and It just made coming home when I didn't want to all that much easier. I like it here but there is something about being around family that makes life great. I will miss having all that girl time with Mom,Michelle, Heidi and Jane. It was a blast to do art, quilt, sew, create, and do kids.