Friday, May 28, 2010

Its coming down.

My house is coming down. I woke up and got dressed with Chris putting our stuff in boxes and getting the kids off to school. What a perfect guy. The only problem was he asked me a simple question about a box and size and I lost it. Not as in yelling and anger but as in tears were a plenty. These emotions are dangerous. I am not sure what to do with them. I grew up with lots of boys and am raising lots of boys what in the world do I do when I cry over something as silly as boxes. Oh, man its going to be a long month. I am sad to leave such great friends and I know that has a lot to do with all these emotions. I just don't think the timing of this is right. I am pretty sure ripping up my house and putting it boxes would of been quite enough but hey why not throw some more drama to the mix.

For the most part doing great, working on getting my energy back. I have slept a lot. We had fun going to our friends Matthew's One year old birthday party last night. Even though I was tired it was nice to get out of the house and have the kids play at the park. 

The kids are excited about a movie night tonight. I am excited about Toasted Black Bean and Corn Taco's we will see how it goes.

2 comments:

Natalie said...

Rachel, I am so sorry! We had two miscarriages after Larisa and it's tough. Let the emotions come. You have a great outlook and attitude! It is sure fun seeing your cute family through your blog. I miss the Cleveland days!

Melissa S. said...

So I never had the D&C done, but I DO remember the hormone rush. It's indescribable how it takes over your body for such a little guy. Your body really goes in "labor" mode and w/ all the hormones that go along with it. I remember being shocked at how I couldn't keep it together over little/happy/sad things. Yep, timing is crappy for you w/ all this change, that's for sure. But hey, at least it didn't happen around strangers, in a new home, new ward and Chris working all the time. At least here, with us, you have distractions......right? Except the fact that I volunteer and you STILL don't take me up on things. Just because someone lives 2 doors down or less then a mile away doesn't make them an easier choice then me who lives a little ways away...............okay, okay, maybe it does. I can't blame you.
I'll see ya tonight. We'll keep your mind off things!